The Next Chapter

the next chapter


I am not sure where we left off but things have changed around here. I am no longer married to my vanilla wife. she lives somewhere over on the other side of town. the house has sold and I am looking. Looking for many things. I am transitioning.  remember the rabbit hole we are slipping into, there is no getting out. I have never been so happy with the person I am becoming. it is one of the craziest things I have ever felt and done. I love it.


I should be keeping a log or journal but often I just don't have the time to sit down anymore as I try to keep moving forward. I am so excited. I now have the paperwork completed to get hrt. I go for my final Dr.s visit to get checked out and to get my prescription. heady times for sure.

move forward a few months.  I now have been on HRT for a full 6 months and oh my things have changed. I haven't been married for a while now and it makes little difference. I now live as a woman in a small conservative community. My life and my business have continued to grow as I become the woman I need to be. Most importantly life has become livable again. It was interesting what has fallen to the wayside as I learn to live honestly and comfortably in my own skin. No more pretending to be something I am not.

In case anyone was wondering, this is what has become of me. I still enjoy a good hard cock, but it is not the driving force that it was. Who knows what the future will bring. I do know that the search continues!

'nuff said

What a start to the new year, omg.  We are ten days into it and there has been more happen in my life than I ever

thought possible.  First things first: I came out to my
vanilla wife on the fourth. I had become cornered and I know it needed to happen to I let it out of the bag, "I am bisexual or more likely gay" I told her.  While she was taken aback she was not really that surprised and had started talking about how my body was changing. We went on like this for a couple of days and then I started telling her of how my body felt changing and what it was doing to my head. I don't want to stop I told her when she suggested going to the doctor to have my hormones checked.  During the course of the conversation we decided since I was horrible with makeup that she would show me how to do it, that since I didn't have anything to wear she got out a dress she thought would fit and that it was ok for me to rid myself of any body hair I wanted. This was FREEDOM!!!!! 


2 hours later I was sitting in the living room dressed having my wife take pictures. She was telling how I glowed as a woman and that I should pursue this part of me. Since then I have had man clothes on a couple of times but not for long, only to go downtown shopping when my wife took me to get my own clothes. From the looks of it she is helping and standing beside me as I begin to transition to full time. this is unreal and the fact that she supports me is like living in a dream. This is scary crazy and the most happy/joyous crazy all at the same time. We have all talked about the rabbit hole and how slippery the slope gets and once you are headed down that hole there is not any going back. It has been a long strange trip and it continues but I have switched trains.


Happy New Year to all!!!

need I say more?

Wow!!

It is good to be back. Writing on my little blog that is. It has been a busy busy month since i last wrote.

I hardly have time to go see my boyfriend who has been busy in his own right. Oh my god how i love to get together with him. he is so hot and so manly.

Sometimes I just get to thinking about what has happened to get me to where I am today. Generally I am as happy as I have ever been in my entire life. Oh I know I have said all of this before but when I reflect on what has happened over the last few years I smile and think what a long strange trip it has been. Today I was asking a friend if she could foresee me where I am today. Her response was a very resounding no. It surprised me somewhat. Here was the shell of a "man" who as a child dressed in his mothers clothes. Who tried to have sex with all his little friends until they finally said to stop.  I went on the have many relationships with women but could never really get comfortable with any of them for long periods of time. I fathered children but was never a father. Life went on and on and on. One day finally my friend asked if her boyfriend could give me a blow job. I am not sure what happened in my head but it snapped. I jumped at  the chance and before I knew it I was begging to suck his cock.  Thus began the long slow transition to where I am today.  Now every ounce of me wants to be more feminine more hours of the day. I want to wear panties everyday and throw all my male clothes out. I do what I can to be clean shaven over my entire body. and I love it . These are more than urges. I feel incomplete without doing these things. and I still wonder why. but I am glad that is the way I feel. 

I know I am not alone out there. Our stories are all different yet the same.  Some of us linger on slowly changing and others throw caution to the wind and just go for it. I salute the sissies who I have followed, without them I would not be here.  Some inspire and some lead us to cautionary tales. I make choices and I follow thru. I like where I am at.  

And the Rest is History

I thought i would check in with you all.  I am doing

good, the weather is changing and my hormones are
raging.  Here is the question; I grew my hair out to look
more fem but what I get is this mass of hair that looks like a man's long hair.  So obviously I need to go have this styled but how can I get this cut more fem but still look manly when I have to work or be in public as a man?  I would love to hear suggestions because I really don't know and there is no one around to ask. I looked at a wig the other day slipped it on and loved what it looked like but there is no way I could keep it attached during activities with my boy friend.  so there must be somebody out there who could give me a few tips.

Some days are funny I think I have hidden long enough and just want to be and do what I want. Then realize where I am located and know with certainty that would not be wise.  On the other hand, my vanilla wife continues to let on she doesn't know but asks the occasional question to let me know she does know.

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Outside influences

I have had one of those weeks. Many outside things affecting everything that goes on with me. Not able to hook up with my man this week. and with a little time online i started getting invitations from young women to look at their pictures on google +. I found them to be, oh how do i say this but, wonderful and made me horny. It has been sometime when genetic girl pictures had much effect on me and it was nice to have that arousal level again but ..... It made me wonder.

 How much of a sissy faggot cocksucker am i?  This morning while cruising around checking out the blogs i follow i found this most sensual loving video of just a few seconds of a cock getting sucked. I so wanted that to be me. I want my man now. it was beautiful. all thoughts about where i belong are gone again. I know!!
   I love it!!

The Return

Oh my god, I recently returned from my usual winter excursion to places warmer than here. Often upon my return the weather has broken and spring is the season for the next six months. Not so much this year. Has been the coldest it has been here for years and now snow. I would love to go back and stay.

The best thing about about returning is getting to live this lifestyle I have chosen. My boyfriend was glad to see me as I was him. His hard cock is so lovely that I get a nice warm feeling as I write this.  If it was not snowing today I would most likely sneak away to spend the day with him. But here where snow is not that common best to not travel. 

Things are good  with me. I like where I am going, the worst is it just sometimes takes so long to get there. hehehe  Experience tells me to just take my time and let things happen as they will. But I always have to keep in mind I am not a patient person. lol  Sometimes I have to slow down and enjoy where I am at today. Hope you do too!!

Happy New Year!!

I just have this crazy feeling 2014 is going to be one crazy good year. Hopefully, for all of us everything we seek will come to pass. Bring it on. Happy New Year!!!

I have often wondered how far this would all go. It is becoming obvious to me that my growing interest in all things feminine and my craving for more cum, more cock and more time to seek these things out lead me to believe that i need to come out of the closet and declare myself to the world. on the other hand i often think that i talk to much about myself on my blog. I should tell stories or find something interesting to say or just post pictures with or without captions. alas dears, I think i will just keep on doing what i have done over the years, talking about how i feel about things in general, how i have slipped down the rabbit hole, how i have little interest in women anymore and how i love to suck my boyfriends cock. I have been told this is all a fantasy and i should keep it that way, if that is true then i am way out of my league.

and i love it. Happy New Year to all

I love it. I couldn't resist this picture, it is so much the way I feel today.

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Pending review

I am hopelessly, and helplessly enjoying the best sex of my life these days. yes it is way different from what ever would have believed years ago. Then someone introduced me to this new lifestyle.

 

I retook sissy crissi's test for sissies this morning and reread my score from a couple of years ago and crissi's comments and she was right, i do have it bad and there is always some man around to get a load of jiz from. I also scored higher than i did before. I am only one point from the most possible so crissi was right i do have it bad.

I met with a gentleman last week who wants a fwb relationship but wants me to be exclusive to him. I am thinking about this. his cock was the biggest i have had and he stayed hard so long. he has a place to host, no more parks and cars. he likes sissy regina. so why am i not thrilled with this arrangement. could it be that i want as many cocks as i can get?   tomorrow looms large on the horizon as  i ponder the coming of a new day in the life of regina. it will be glorious as i get to serve my man.

 Another marvelous date with my real man. I have become his little bitch, slut, sissy, cum loving gurl. it is divine. I am good with this for now.

I came out to an old friend and lover the other day just to see what the reaction would be and it was somebody i can share anything with. Turns out her sister and her used to talk about the chances of me being gay. So she was not surprised at all. so maybe i was the last to know.

life is to short to not get questions answered. live today as if ........

 

today

Today i dream. To look like any of these pics would thrill me to know end. little else to say, we know where my mind is, while i am still a cum loving sissy faggot today i dream of being young and beautiful.











Enjoy life today as if there is no tomorrow!!

desire

 Oh yes, yes, yes

To Each of You,

 

I often wonder what you all would like to see here. It sometimes seems like I am in a rut and saying the same thing over and over.  Hugs

Ready

I am so ready to move on in this transformation and at some 
point soon it is going to happen.  What that entails i am not

 

really sure. I do know that i would like to be able to be more free. to live outside the constraints that i currently live with. I will leave my job on the first of the year and continue to work at home in another capacity. I have been blogging here for over 2 years and things have changed quite a bit. you have all put up with my little mad ramblings from time to time and i am sure you must all think, "get on with it."  I am gaining confidence in who i am and what i want, so time marches on. it is impossible to deny that i am a sissy faggot cocksucker who loves to eat cum and has little interest in women other than the clothes they wear.








I often wonder what the future holds and how far i will go on this path. what i do know is i do not want it to end.

please comment or write a pm. i am always looking for others to write or chat with. hugs

Faster and Faster

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dreaming again.

This is what i live for.  i keep looking but options are slow to develop amongst other things.  It seems I had a little reprieve from femdom by my own making. I could never figure it out just didn't have the urges. I am happy to say all is restored this morning and the last couple of weeks the urges have grown stronger again and now at last i can truly say I am back. hugs to you all

next

time goes on. I was out of the country for awhile and while out of the country i was wandering around trying to be a man. I don't think it really works very well for me any more. Since my last post i have grown to crave the position you see here. on my knees in front of a mans cock. 


I had another meeting last week. It turned out to be absolutely sublime. We met at the quick stop as we had agreed to. The hustle and bustle of that place always gives me reason to go someplace else so we headed down to the park a couple miles down the road. My friend got into my car and we chatted for several minutes. It wasn't long before my friend decided i would like to see his panties. That being the case i decided i wanted  to see his clitty. We are still sitting in the parking lot and bingo, here we go again. I reached over to touch it. I wanted everything to go slowly, so i could really get to understand about the anatomy of a man, especially this uncut clitty which was completely new to me. I touched it and i am always surprised at how i like the feel of another mans cock. Within seconds I reached down and tasted this delight.  Again i am dumbstruck with the ecstasy i feel when i have a man's hard cock in my mouth.




When i was finished i sat back up in the middle of a parking lot in the middle of nowhere and smiled. I had what i wanted, his load of cum. I knew at that moment that there was no going back to be the man i was trying to be a week before. that i am little more than a sissy faggot who lives to eat cum and with that  i am good.

Finally

Yesterday i started the day with a note to my master with a subject line of "finally". We were going to meet face to face for the first time after a couple of months of just emails and chatting. he has been sculpting me to be a good little sissy slut.

I skipped work and headed to our prescribed meeting place. a little store in the middle of nowhere this was just a public meeting so we could meet, find out a little about each other and see, i guess, if this is what we really wanted to do.  i was directed to wear panties and i did. i even wore my nipple rings he had directed to get and wear when we were together.  we had no plan other than to meet and talk. things were alluded to but this was about getting comfortable with each other. 

i got to the place a little early and went inside to get coffee. when i returned he was there. we introduced ourselves and he went to get coffee. we sat in his car for a while and talked of many things of little consequence and finally we noticed how crowded the parking lot had become. i suggested we go to a park i had passed a couple miles down the road. we arrived at the park and both of us used the restroom. we stood outside on a cold windy day. he asked what i wanted to do.

If i could get one thing out of this meeting i had wanted to touch another mans cock. i have been doing this sissy thing a fairly long time and honestly i have never been with a real man.

so my reply to his question was " i want to touch your cock." we retreated back to the cold concrete seclusion of the restroom and slipped inside. where my master unbuckled his belt and dropped his pants in front of me. there before me was this magnificent cock. it was now i had to decide if i could actually do this. in a split second that decision was made as i put my hand on his shoulder as the other found his cock to fondle. instantly it responded to my touch and almost as quickly i responded to its response. i dropped to my knees to get a better look at this cock in my hand. no sooner had i dropped down than i muttered something about i can't believe i am doing this and touched that cock to my lips and bingo it was in my mouth. omg what a feeling!!! There was the immediate realization i had wasted my life. this is what i was born to do. Be on my knees in front of a real man with his cock in my mouth. there was no hesitancy there was no wondering about anything i realized i wanted his cum and i was going to get it. i am not sure what he thought as he was about to cum he asked if i was ready. my response was to bury my face in his pubic hair and wonder what is taking so long. it was magnificent i loved the feel and the taste as he exploded in my mouth and down my throat. nothing escaped this cocksuckers lips. i wanted that cum so badly i continued to suck him long after any vestige of cum remained. i loved it and i did not want to stop. 

in a cold restroom along a minor highway was not what i had in mind for my first blowjob. i would meet my master there any day of the week to repeat this event and if you are ever passing my way i  .............