Sometimes I just get to thinking about what has happened to get me to where I am today. Generally I am as happy as I have ever been in my entire life. Oh I know I have said all of this before but when I reflect on what has happened over the last few years I smile and think what a long strange trip it has been. Today I was asking a friend if she could foresee me where I am today. Her response was a very resounding no. It surprised me somewhat. Here was the shell of a "man" who as a child dressed in his mothers clothes. Who tried to have sex with all his little friends until they finally said to stop. I went on the have many relationships with women but could never really get comfortable with any of them for long periods of time. I fathered children but was never a father. Life went on and on and on. One day finally my friend asked if her boyfriend could give me a blow job. I am not sure what happened in my head but it snapped. I jumped at the chance and before I knew it I was begging to suck his cock. Thus began the long slow transition to where I am today. Now every ounce of me wants to be more feminine more hours of the day. I want to wear panties everyday and throw all my male clothes out. I do what I can to be clean shaven over my entire body. and I love it . These are more than urges. I feel incomplete without doing these things. and I still wonder why. but I am glad that is the way I feel.
I know I am not alone out there. Our stories are all different yet the same. Some of us linger on slowly changing and others throw caution to the wind and just go for it. I salute the sissies who I have followed, without them I would not be here. Some inspire and some lead us to cautionary tales. I make choices and I follow thru. I like where I am at.
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